So, yesterday was my last Saturday of work (until I change careers, ha ha), and it left me feeling meloncholy. I said good-bye to two clients - one is a lovely young lady I've been seeing for a year, and it's simply logistics that prevent us from continuing. The other is a woman I've been working with for about 6 months, but twice a week, which is a much more intense therapy. She reminds me a lot of myself, though far more beautiful and cool than I ever was, and someone who's in intense pain. She decided very last minute to relocate to the western side of the US, and I worry, a lot, about how this move will be for her. It's hard, letting go. I really don't like not knowing how the story will end!
Yesterday was also my husband's birthday, which we celebrated by giving him a mohawk. And a lot of Lego. :) He's tough to buy for, that guy.
Today somehow turned out to be incredibly productive. I went to church (amazing as always, I'm feeling so, so good about how this has worked out, our new guy is just incredible) and came home and DH and I have been CLEANING all day! We're having 4 families over tomorrow for a cook out and party, and we got a LOT done. We ended up actually doing some deep cleaning (SO not my forte), and it feels good. I think I've mentioned before, domestic tasks are really not my strength, but I am working on doing better. Today's sermon really focused on taking full responisbility for your own thoughts, feelings and behaviors, and it's a constant process for me.
It was also, interestingly, a day of letting go. We got rid of all of our old straw cups from when the kids were really little, all of the scrungy water bottles, I went though all the plastic Ziploc stuff and got it all organized, etc. That kind of stuff. Normally I have a very hard time letting go of anything, but when I get into the zone, I just Get It Done, man. I wish I could harness that energy and call on it all the time! I also made a commitment to go through my diaper bag collection (which is embarrasingly large) and sell everything that I don't use, which honestly is most of them. I'm going to do that with the strollers as well. I think it's acknowledging the shift that's occurring for us with parenting - we don't have babies anymore. No one's in diapers, no one rides in strollers, everyone is potty trained! While I do love babies, honestly, I'm not totally sad to let it go. I feel like we're hitting this sweet spot - DS1 is going to 3rd grade, DS2 is going to 1st, and DD is headed for her last year of preschool. Everyone sleeps through the night! They still like us! They're funny and interesting little folks to have around. I feel like both DH and I are really getting back more of US. DH wants to take fiddle lessons. I've got my photography class starting in 10 days (!!!!). Life is changing and evolving in a way that feels really positive and exciting.