Sunday, January 22, 2012

Life goes along...

We got some snow this weekend!  Which made my kiddos very happy.  Our lot is very sloped, and with the right kind of snow (which this was not, sadly), we can construct an excellent sledding run.  Last year, with all the snow we had, we had an AMAZING one, full of bumps and whatnot.  Very fun.

I had meant to do a whole bunch of knitting today, but then I remembered that I had to do this certification thing for the State of MA (the CANS if anyone cares), which ended up taking 5 hours and making me so cranky.  Okay, I admit it, I've been staying up too late the last few nights, which just MAY have contributed to The Cranky.  Last night I stayed up too late looking at old pictures.  My husband resurrected our other computer that has our digital pics from 1999-August 2010 (when my little Apple laptop came to live with me), and it was SO SO fun to go through old movies and pictures.  It's so hard to remember that my guys were SO small!  I have some hysterical videos, I need to figure out softward to knit them all into a few larger home movies that I can torture entertain my friends and family with.  It brought up a lot of feelings interestingly enough.  There are some pictures and videos of the women I spent *all* my time with when I first had my oldest.  It makes me sad to know that a person I really thought would be a friend for life...won't.  It wasn't my choice to end the friendship, and it was so painful, but it now also feels firmly in the past.  I can wish her the best, hope she's doing well, and move on.  It's funny, for a long time, I was so hurt and angry, but now, I sort of think "huh, I'd like to hear from her."  Not my place to reach out though.  In any case, it is fun to remember how funny my oldest's little voice was.  He's such a BOY now, into Pokemon and karate and shouting out "That's *sick*!" when something...I don't know, entertains him?  I feel so old. :)

So, yeah, no knitting got done today.  We had church this morning - our rector left two weeks ago, and it sounds like the Vestry has made the decision to go a particular route in the search process which means we'll be getting a new rector fairly soon, it sounds, for at least a 3-year contract.  The Vestry voted unanimously for this person, hopefully it'll be a good fit.  DH and I still struggle with our commitment to this church.  It's an Episcopal church, which is some ways is a good fit for me (which, being a Christian church is bound to be imperfect, but I'm not sure what would be better), but it's not a great fit for DH.  He's committed to coming for me and for our family, but he hasn't found the community there he'd like.  I want him to get more  involved with the Habitat for Humanity programs the church does, I think that would help, and I've committed to encouraging him to go out and work on building friendships here in our own town.  It's really hard - I was going to say, for men, but maybe really for people who work full-time.  I've had the advantage of being here all the time, and being in the preschools and getting to know people there.

Anyway.  It's almost 9:30...I'm going to bed!

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