Tuesday, March 23, 2010

365-78: 2010 so far...

It's not been so great. Lots of annoyances: sickness, pain, frustration and while we haven't had a major loss here (yet), friends suffering big losses.

It's easy to feel gratitude when things are going well. It's easy to count my blessings when things are smooth sailing and just simple, you know? It's these sorts of times when it gets tougher. And, I expect, much more important.

We're putting my darling cat to sleep on Saturday. We haven't told the kids yet. It's time. I had made an appointment a week and a half ago, then canceled it because it wasn't quite time, but now it is. She's losing weight so quickly, she's seeming more and more uncomfortable...it's time. I'm heartbroken about it. She and I have been together 16.5 years and she's been the constant for me. I'll miss her forever.

So today, right now, I'm grateful to have her with me, to have had such a good long run and to be able to ease her transition to the next phase of being, whatever that might be. I'm sure there is one. I love you, my sweet girl.


Anonymous said...

I'm sorry about Apple-cat, sweetie. *hugs* Right there with you... we are catless now after 19 years (as of 3/12... while I was in Cancun. G, fortunately, was home, and took care of things).


Sandy Bates Bell said...

Cats are always the souls of the house. I had to put to sleep my beloved Frieda when she was 17 and I now have my old boy Mayo who is rapidly approaching 16 (Cinco de Mayo, May 5th his birthday).
Words cannot take away the pain but know that their spirits will live on in your heart forever.

Be brave, you have given her a wonderful life.